Sometime i already hope that i wont be mi, getting this stupid thing really make mi don neo what going to happen each and everyday. There many ppl around mi supporting mi to go over this situation and i also don wan to make ppl who encourage mi disappointed. But really sorry, i now thinking whether should i contiune anot? I tired, sick of it and i don had anymore strength to go on and on. I neo i such a loser but it is really very hard, i try and try but everyday wat i can do ?? I cant enjoy life, i cant do this cant do that, can eat thing that i like, cant drink, cant smoke, that not i really wan! Somehow i regret telling out what i am facing, if not i can just pretend nothing had happen. Ppl telling mi to go on, but they do not neo how much pain am i going through, saying is more easily den doing. Imagine u get pain everyday, eat thing that u don like, do thing that u don like, will u be happy ?? I NOT HAPPY AT ALL! I JUST PRETENDING, JUST PRETENDING. I AM SICK OF IT ALREADY